I secretly like blackouts. Although electricity has got to be one of my favorite inventions, yes, i secretly like blackouts. The boredom, the silence, the fact that i am forced to look around and pay close attention to the things around me like the sound of someone's footsteps, the knock on the door, the fluttering snowflakes, the crickets and birds. I like fruits, especially avocados. I also like green mangoes dipped in soy sauce. I like bananas, melons and peaches. I like strawberry-flavored chocolates, but i'm not a fan of eating the fruit by itself. I like broccolis sauteed in olive oil with a dash of pepper and salt. I like rain. I like cloudy. I like trains, and sleep there soundly. I like sunny days but not hot, humid days. I like foggy weather. I also like steam. I like sitting under a misting system on a hot summer day. I just like it when the air is hazy. I like shaved ice. I like snow. I just really like ice in general. I like it when restaurants put so much ice in my drink. I could chew on ice forever. I don't want to state the obvious but i really like music, different kinds of music. I'm a big radiohead fan. I cried when i saw them live. I like getting on a train and just get off at an unknown station and explore the town. I like poetry, both reading and writing. I like books. I like kerouac, tolstoy, murakami, fitzgerald, hemingway and yeats. I like woody allen and i like his films. I like long warm showers. I like soaking in the tub. In fact, let me get in the tub and continue writing this there. I like afternoons, it's my favorite time of the day. I like music festivals. I like crystals. I like stars. I like any citrus smell. I like gervic's smell, even if he smells like cigarettes and alcohol most of the time. I like the after-sex atmosphere. I like smoking up at the beach or the mountains or at some abandoned treehouse.
I don't like people who talk too much, they make me so uncomfortable. I especially don't like people who kiss other people's ass. I don't like waiting. I don't like making people wait. I don't like phone calls. I don't like it when someone cleans my room without me and i just get lost after. I don't like looking for things. I don't like mcdonald's. I don't like tangled wires. I don't like the imperial family or the royal family. I don't like it when my battery percentage is an odd number, it drives me nuts. I don't like the mayonnaise they make in the philippines.
I am a big fan of life. I love life. I am not scared of dying but i am so scared of that few seconds you spend before you die when you know you're about to die. Most of all, i am scared of losing the people i love. Just the thought of it sends specks of shattered glass into my heart. I believe in stoicism. I believe in objectivism. I believe in reincarnation. But there are also days when i just don't believe in anything. Like today.
