Sitting on a porch with her Virginia Slims on a very fine Wednesday evening
Night owls humming her favorite music
Sirens howling, dogs screaming, ocean waves whispering
The rattling of the universe, the explosion of stars inside your mouth
The bombing in the depths of the earth and the splashing sound of the fishes
All of these, she doesn't want to miss
Did you know that you don't want to miss any of these either?
Did you know that you don't want to miss even the bad things?
The bad things that make you feel sad, really sad
The bad things that made you say 'good night, good bye'
The exact bad thing that brought her to that porch on a very fine Wednesday evening
When her friends are drinking and having one of the best times
The best times she would have kept forever
The best times she would have remembered as very special
But you can never hide away the invisible knife stuck inside your guts
You want to throw up
You want to roll over the place in pain
You want to be taken to the nearest hospital by an ambulance
If only you knew what to say to the doctors how that invisible knife got stuck inside your guts
So now, you would rather be sitting alone on another porch from the other side of the earth
You would rather listen with your right ear to every single sound the nature produces
And the other ear you dedicate to your body and soul's longing
Because you don't want to miss any of these things
Not one single thing left out
And did you know that there are other million people sitting on their porch right now?
Feeling the exact same feeling that is making you feel sad
Pondering on the bad things they are embracing
And also the good things they are missing
Well, I thought you should know
And you might as well know that it is okay to feel shitty, and remorseful and happy
All at the same time, all at the same fucking time
♡Manganese
